When you bury your child it changes your perspective on a lot of things in life. It is a constant reminder that death is no respecter of persons. Regardless if you are young or old, innocent or treacherous, it can visit you and/or your loved ones at any time. It reminds us of the truth to the old adage seize the moment. Tomorrow is not promised so we should make the most of each day, find our purpose, and live life to the fullest. However hard, it is a constant reminder for me.
The closest I can be to my beloved son is through photos, memories, and by visiting his gravesite. The latter is never easy and can sometimes seem to strip the life and hope for a brighter tomorrow right out of me. But each morning I rise with great expectations anyway.
Life is painful with such a loss. Each day truly has enough troubles of its own, but each day I choose to live happy, I choose to live by faith, and I choose to make the most of my time on earth. I focus on the gift of my son's life, and it gives me life. Yet I am still his mother, and will forever love and miss him.
I never thought in a million and one years I would receive a phone call that my child had taken his last breathe in my absence. I just knew that we had the rest of our lives to spend together. No one could have told me that his would end after 3 months. I'm just grateful that I didn't choose to go back to work 4 weeks after his birth. I'm grateful that I took the extra time to spend to bond and nurture him. I'm thankful that my heart and mind were open to the lessons he was sent here to teach me.
Tre' Stargell
(November 11, 2009- February 12, 2010)
Today my son would have been 4 years old. I celebrate his life. Although it was short, being his mother is one of the greatest gifts and blessings I've ever been given.
I Love You!
Live, Love, Dance, Pray...
Be Thankful Each and Every Day!
Quinta Nicole
Me with my son Tre' January 2010
P.S. I know that 2013 has been a difficult year for families. For many it has been a year of separation, death, and destruction. But I believe that for those that truly desire more and will refuse to give up, a time to renew, rebuild, and restore is near. Don't give up!
