I'm Coming Out: Part 2

I've always know that I was destined for greatness. That's why I never had any set standards for men when I was dating. If we had a physical attraction, got along great, and had fun together, it was on and popping. I was smart and independent. I didn't need a man to take care of me, because I knew with God's help, I could take care of myself. All of my boyfriends had to believe in God, but they didn't always have to have faith in Christ until I went through some things that only prayer and faith in the blood of Jesus could bring me out of. That's why I developed such high standards for marriage, and boy did God bless. Don't get me wrong my husband and I do argue, fuss, fight, and have issues like any married couple from time to time. The key to our marriage is that we both hold on to God's unchanging hand to see us through the changes that we encounter in life. This brings us success, strengthens our love, develops our character, and shapes our service. I was blessed to date a lot of men that genuinely cared for me and prepared me for marriage . Even today I still feel they are all wonderful and outstanding guys. They were just not for me to marry. Knowing what I know now, I appreciate them, because they all helped me become the woman I am today and impacted my faith walk.
Being destined for greatness has always scared me. I've always preferred to be the girl in the crowd even when I'm dancing. It's just that when I'm dancing it's usually just me, God, and the music. Nothing else matters. Then when the music stops, I realize that I've caused a scene. With God in the mix, it's hard for me to stay hidden. Somehow he pulls me out and His light shines upon me, and I don't even realize it. Even from the back of a call center. Truth is I have been running and hiding from Him for a long time. When my son passed away, I was in a place where I can hear about God but not hear directly from God. Now that has changed. Having lost my son, I no longer value earthly things like I used to. I realize that I have nothing to be scared of losing that God can't give back in this life or the next. Now I choose to embrace the greatness within, allowing God to reveal, train, and release me in my gifts,talents, and calling. I refuse to be placed inside of any box but His. I refuse to continue walking around all holy. Now I allow Him to make me holy. As what has been kept in darkness comes to light, I understand it's not about the stardom or the fame. It's about embracing who I am in Christ in this day and age. It's not about the money or the hype but about helping others who may follow me to find His guiding light. I'm Coming Out Yep I'm Coming Out...