When Will We Have More Children

When will you have more children? I get asked forms of this question a lot, and my answer is the same as it's always been: whenever the good Lord chooses to bless us with more children.  When I got pregnant with Tre' we really weren't ready for children. He was a miracle that came after our Valentine's make up session. I know some of you are reading this like make up session? Yes my husband and I didn't know what Valentines meant to the other when we first got married. He came home early from a conference to surprise me, and I was busy working.  I was used to dating guys that didn't really do much for me on Valentine's day so I didn't have any expectations, and I thought it would  make things easy for him by me working. So we spent all Valentines day getting an understanding and talking it out. We started talking when the sun was out and didn't stop until bed time. All week long I got all kinds of special gifts,and then  a couple of month's later I got a really big surprise when I found out I was 3 months pregnant. Valentines last year was pretty rough because Tre' past 2 days before, but it's still a special time. Maybe this year instead of celebrating it for a week, we can celebrate it for the full month along with Black History. I don't know. We'll see. I have some ideas...but in reference to more kids we haven't been trying, but we haven't been trying to prevent having more children. After Tre' passed away, I took birth control for 3 days, felt convicted, and prayed to God. I said Lord you kept numerous women from having children by closing their wombs. When it's time for us to have more children open my womb and let me conceive. When it's not time, keep it closed. Don't know when that day will be, but I do know that we will be ready. I have had one  miscarriage since then, and though it was disappointing, it wasn't as bad as losing my little man. I felt so much hope and excitement seeing the  little cross on the stick. I felt shattered when I found out it wasn't time. I couldn't even talk about it openly really because I was already dealing with so much. I still went to church and functioned as normal as I could, but it was a painful time. That was around August 29. Since then I have really been working on my health in addition to spiritual growth. I've been taking in more fruits,vegetables, and whole grains, working out, and dancing occasionally. I've also been drinking lots of water and fruit juices and getting as much sunlight and fresh air as I can stand in the cold.This morning, I went to the doctor for another check up and so far everything looks good and I am looking pretty healthy. Far better than the report I  received when I went to the doctors around November and they tried to say I had acute appendicitis. I've had 3 people ask me if I  was expecting within the last 3 weeks and I'm as skinny as a toothpick. They say I have the pregnant glow. I laugh  and say keep talking I receive it. Lol. Right now I am really just letting patience have her perfect work so that I will lack no good thing. Greg and I do sit down and discuss children and baby names, when to laugh, when to be stern, whose gonna be the good cop or bad cop in the situation. We talk about how we plan to support each other as we grow as parents. It will happen one day, but in the mean time we pray and employ patience. That's important in times like this when you want something so bad, but realize that you have no control whatsoever in the situation. We are liable to lose our minds without patience, but with it we gain the opportunity for fullness of joy and hope. Whenever God deems we are ready, we will have more children.