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Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Where the Glow Comes From
What can I say. I am in a different place in my life right now. I spend a lot of time judging myself and not judging others. I am learning to take responsibility for my own actions and not blame others or life for my short comings. At the same time I am learning not to wait for someone else to tell me who I am or what to do. I have always looked for someone to validate the gifts that God has placed inside of me, fearful to share my faith. I am a Christian, but I have always had a hard time sharing the Word with people. Some people may not believe me, but it's the truth. There have been many times that I have prayed for forgiveness for not being a good steward of God's Word and sharing the Love of Christ and salvation. Usually when I share my faith it's really on accident. When God tells me to share I am often scared and don't want to. Then somewhere in a conversation compassion will kick in and the Holy Spirit will take over and I'll be shocked and wondering where did all that come from. I have had a lot of people try to tell me who I was or what they saw for my life in the past, and I couldn't receive it. Simply because I knew deep inside of me that their was more to my life. Their synopsis of what life and God had in store for me really just let me know that they had no idea who I was or who God was preparing me to be. I've always been placed in some box: dancer, teacher, minister, consultant, customer service personnel, sister, "church sister", etc all with limitations set by people. I've been all of them at some point, but today I'm just me. No more titles just Quinta Nicole or Mrs. Stargell or a form of my name. I've been praying for God-given mentors and leaders that can really take the time to help me grow and develop as I continue to move forward in my destiny. I realize that tomorrow is not promised, and I can't give the excuse that I didn't know how to do what God called me to do to serve His people for the reason why I didn't fulfill my destiny. I have to start somewhere. I choose to start with fine-tuning and perfecting my ability to hear God speak, to hear the still small voice. That's what made faithful Biblical people like Abraham successful. He cultivated a hearing ear. God is faithful to direct our paths if we acknowledge Him, but we have to be in a position to hear Him clearly. The place where I can hear Him most clear is in the peace of my home. Now some people will read this and go all spiritual on me and say, " well how can a person hear unless they have a preacher." There is some truth to that statement. It's a subject that I'm not willing to tackle here. I love church, I like to go to church, and watch preaching on tv. Still I have learned that church and televangelist programs should never replace spending personal time in devotion. So to help train my spiritual ear I have increased my devotion time, and I believe that's where that "pregnant" glow comes from lol. In hearing God, my faith is strengthened and I am encouraged to really live life as He designed. I find my validity to be awesome and to operate in my talents and gifts in Him. I believe in submission,authority, and accountability amongst people, but I also believe that when it's right the Spirit of God within us will have peace,will confirm, and will lead our submission to one another. God doesn't always tell me what I want to hear, but I know it's what I need to hear. With this in mind, I am able to move forward.
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